I don’t have any company’s Email. I also don’t rely on it.
I have gmail. It works better I think. I have been and will be Google’s employee till Google is there.
If I had shut myself in then why would I ask to meet the director.
Time to change the regime I think. Abolish Theocracy !!
To,
The Director
IGCAR Kalpakkam
Tamil Nadu
Through Proper Channel
Respected Sir,
Most humbly I request your good self to note that, I Ashwini Singh Chandel Employee ID 11607 is on leave since October.
At the joining day I couldn’t meet you as you were unavailable. I met almost every one else I was assigned job with.
Sir I had no plan of coming here before completing Mtech. I also mentioned it to recruitment before joining. But my family members wanted my marriage to be priority. They almost forced me coming here. I already told them that I will apply for EOL as soon as I join. But they always negotiate with me even for my personal life decisions. My mother is not well at all. It appears normal to anyone because, to give you best metaphor borrow half of my brain. My house is also half in her name. I told her to make it completely in her own name because this is very challenging psychologically for me. Even doctors don’t take me seriously. It is detrimental for my love life. A schizophrenic person condition only worsens with age. There is no cure. It’s neurological. If my family is not able to see then it is because it’s been compensated by me because of my pre conditioning. She is given lot of Antipsychotics and she fasts a lot so how is the required dopamine been compensated when my father is also no more since class 10th.
I tried many times without success to quit the dynamics but now if I do it will more or less be murdering my own mother. I can only minimize it till she is in this world. It will also be best for two of my sister’s health because they are not capable or conditioned like me. Infact they are very unhealthily attached to her.
The only way I found is to physically be away and psychologically be immersed in something totally of my own interest. This and previous Job I realised was her way of filling my father’s absense for remaining of her life. I would surely do if it’s natural or if I have manageable problem doing so. But I am taking lot of medicine for a long time, Anti depressants mainly even in this state of affairs when I am not coming to IGCAR. And previous Job gave me enough experience to judge what doing it again would be like.
To talk this personal to anybody I found is only productive if I make them receptive first. Infact no one not even my best friends have been able to understand it. Hence I am maintaining a larger psychological boundary than others here.
Sir If for record keeping a medical certificate is necessary I can arrange it but as my mother informed me that you are open for taking leave for counselling I would like to take it but you should know councelling will not help as I am already on heavy medications and societal customs of India don’t let even psychologist diagnose the problem properly. I say this because if I talk with someone outside India they understand instantly.
I understand that taking authorised leave would had been peace of mind for both office and me but I am doing things at my maximum pace possible.
My request to you and all my Office mates is to give me time and avoid contact with my family. Sir I have a decent IQ. I will not do anything if there was not an important and valid reason.
In fact I am also confident that I will not take but only give to the organization wherever I am on duty. But natural pace is necessary.
It took a lot of time and effort for me to understand this.
I am paying for food and room in Guest house also on my own arrangement for last eight months.
Finally I request you to schedule a time I can come to your office. I have already mentioned everything here so if you don’t feel necessary just instruct me the required formalities to follow.
Sincerely
Ashwini Singh Chandel
Employee ID 11607
IGCAR Kalpakkam
TamilnaduSress is an inevitable part of human life because the human mind is often pulled in two opposing directions (truth versus falsehood/attachment).
Three Main Ways People Deal with Stress
1. The Path of Ignorance (Demonic Tendency) (Global Warming)
Some people try to escape stress by completely denying the truth and immersing themselves only in pleasure and indulgence. Such individuals often lose awareness and laugh recklessly, which he describes as a sign of a demonic tendency.
2. The Path of Hypocrisy (Plant a tree to save the Earth)
This is the second approach, where a person divides themselves into two parts: one part performs religious or moral activities for public appearance, while the other engages in wrong actions in private. He describes this as the most difficult and deceitful path, where a person continuously deceives both themselves and others.
3. Living Fully with the Truth (Leave time and amount of reward for me to decide, You just fight, Krishna says.)
This is the only genuine and natural way. He says, “Whomever you belong to, belong to them completely”—meaning that complete dedication to truth and living naturally is the real cure for stress.
The genuine simplicity and naturalness of mind—not artificial laughter or hypocrisy—form the foundation of beauty and inner peace.
Ashwini Singh Chandel is a graduate from NIT Bhopal in ECE currently posted in IGCAR Kalpakkam as Technical officer. He has 8 years experience in NTPC as assistant manager. He shares his unorthodox and unique views on philosophy, politics and science and use psychology to connect it with the general people so more people can be involved with the philosophy and science community and play an active role in policy making process of his country and the world.
