It is said that when you do something you really like you will not to have to worry about the future. Who ? Geeta People. How is it possible ? They say if you are thinking of future you are not doing justice with your present and when you worry about future you never are doing something you really like. Karmanya…blah blah blah.
I think it is not just that you don’t worry as a result but also not worrying is the initial requirement and since your present is always non worrying so is the future as like creates like. As soon as you worry you get distracted or egotistical and not with required love for your work.
I don’t know what I like. I like many things but if I think of its future I loose the energy. So do what you like is not exactly correct. It should be to know what you like. For example In live comments I don’t do well if I start thinking about who is watching or sometimes wether someone is watching. I usually think so when I am about to run out of option to get time and money for this work.
The money part is what damages the time that could be spent much more productively. But it’s money. It’s normal to think about it. But may be it’s not necessary. It comes into play when I have a plan B. And my Plan B is I can always join job for money. And till I have plan B I will always do my work by calculating the number of days I could stay at a place or afford to eat at a place. My main concern will be this and even though it may look practical to have a plan B, always arranging it ensuring it will consume lot of mental resources. The work will be of inferior quality because I do have to think about the future. Infact all my work plans will be aligned with it and not completely in the moment.
For that either I have to be financially secured for rest of the life or really follow Geeta.
Start anything that I usually do in the day but not with the thought of future. Infact only do that I can do without thinking of the future. My job doesn’t fit into that category. Any Job for that matter do not fit into that category because I will be only thinking of Salary. I know the levels of love I have for that job and this job. Only roadblock is fear.
If I fear I won’t be able to do anything right even if I do join my BARC job. Joining it out of fear is something I fear because that will make me an employee of Left hemisphere. My whole job is to not be an employee of Left but Right hemisphere.
I never really gave full attention when I was in NTPC and since all action was motivated by what I could do in future it never worked as my methods were both unorthodox because of love but orthodox because of fear. That never works when you want to do work of your own. You have to leave one for the other.
Right now if I stop writing only thing that will float in my mind will be future. So for writing also I have chosen the topic future. Doing is different than thinking about future is what AP means I think.
Thermostat
I feel I have somehow set the temperature of my environment. It was getting hot and I was reacting to it with prickly heat. I still have them as I walk in the sun a lot but they are not prickly anymore.
Since it was a natural reaction to the environment I must have been also naturally doing the required temperature setting if I am any bit of a thermostat. I scolded 5 random people this month. Metaphorical but Biologically I can say I did something. Rest I don’t know which temperature I set and which environment because I travelled a lot of India.
Love is the Universal language. All common species have same language. Dog barks. Cow moos. But people in India Bengals, Tamils, Assames etc. Are they different species. I am just asking or do they have a common language, Hindi or English or Sign.
Again I would say to be a thermostat not a thermometer. Set the temperature of the environment Don’t just react to it. Now I am feeling very sleepy Good Night.